{April 2014}

This song tugs on my heart and fills my eyes with tears. I am constantly thinking, "why didn't he say something". Why didn't he tell me, why are we here in this awful place??? The line, "it was over my head, I knew nothing at all" just breaks my heart. This was over my husbands head, over my head, he didn't know this addiction had this kind of power over him, he hid it to keep our marriage together, he didn't know it would take over, that it would leave a path of years of destruction, he didn't know it could ever bring us to this place. He "thought" he could control it and beat it. You can't overcome addictions while hiding them and lying to those you love. Secrets hold you in bondage, secrets are the lifeblood of addiction, there is no happiness, peace, or recovery if living with secrets. I beg you, if you or a loved one are in the trap of addictions, SAY SOMETHING. Speak up, ask for help, educate yourself on addiction, STAND UP and FIGHT for your life!!! Addictions ROB you and those that love you of the life you were meat I have, they rob you of time, they rob you of the person you were meant to be, they rob you of your intimate connection to your creator, your Father in Heaven, who loves you more then you could comprehend. SAY SOMETHING, let people in, IT IS OK, we are all fighting our own battles, being honest with enrich your relationships and will empower you. Turn this over to The Lord, ask for help, he will send help, you can recover, you can be honest, you CAN say something!!!